Sunday, June 18, 2006
St. Simons Island, Georgia
1) I am in Georgia, and it is beautiful...beyond words beautiful. Here for the Southeastern Writers Conference
2) I am alone :(
I wonder how I get myself into these sitations.
I need the down-time, the away time, but I would give my left kidney to have a friend with me!
I'm sure that by this time tomorrow I will have several new friends...friends who will help me down this writing path I have chosen.
Already tonight though I have shed tears...wondering aloud what I am doing here. Looking at a sunset through aged oaks cloaked in Spanish Moss...and feeling more alone, more at a loss, more at a crossroad than I have ever felt in my life.
Pondering longevity...asking, "What endures?"
Standing in the presence of these Live Oaks, so huge and old...and me being relatively small and new in comparison...and KNOWING that these trees were here for years before my birth, and will last years after I am dead. It is hard for me to get my mind around it.
Words endure. Words pluck the strings of my heart.
Old words, His WORD...truths that have lasted 4,000 years or more...speak to me in this day.
I listened to Shakespeare's "Tempest" today...book on tape! What a wonderful story, he used the phrase "Gentle Creature" (for Miranda), and "Puppy headed Monster" for Caliban (sp?)...and I was moved almost to tears, and then laughter. I don't have a copy of this play, but I will soon.
I feel like a blubbering idiot-- being moved so easily, being touched by the untouchable...loving with abandon and suffering with broken-ness.
Being alone when all I want is arms around me. And when I have arms around me, wanting to be alone.
Maddness, pure maddness I tell you.
Think of me tonight...pray for me if you will.
I will be fine-- I will learn to my hearts fill this week- 7 hours from home for the next 5 days.
A stranger in a beautiful place. I want to soak it all in. I want my bleary eyes to clear up! :)
Tomorrow the sun will shine and I will smile...Turst me, I know I will.
Bear with me...