Friends,
Two things...
1) I am in Georgia, and it is beautiful...beyond words beautiful. Here for the Southeastern Writers Conference
2) I am alone :(
I wonder how I get myself into these sitations.
I need the down-time, the away time, but I would give my left kidney to have a friend with me!
I'm sure that by this time tomorrow I will have several new friends...friends who will help me down this writing path I have chosen.
Already tonight though I have shed tears...wondering aloud what I am doing here. Looking at a sunset through aged oaks cloaked in Spanish Moss...and feeling more alone, more at a loss, more at a crossroad than I have ever felt in my life.
Pondering longevity...asking, "What endures?"
Standing in the presence of these Live Oaks, so huge and old...and me being relatively small and new in comparison...and KNOWING that these trees were here for years before my birth, and will last years after I am dead. It is hard for me to get my mind around it.
Words endure. Words pluck the strings of my heart.
Old words, His WORD...truths that have lasted 4,000 years or more...speak to me in this day.
I listened to Shakespeare's "Tempest" today...book on tape! What a wonderful story, he used the phrase "Gentle Creature" (for Miranda), and "Puppy headed Monster" for Caliban (sp?)...and I was moved almost to tears, and then laughter. I don't have a copy of this play, but I will soon.
I feel like a blubbering idiot-- being moved so easily, being touched by the untouchable...loving with abandon and suffering with broken-ness.
Being alone when all I want is arms around me. And when I have arms around me, wanting to be alone.
Maddness, pure maddness I tell you.
Think of me tonight...pray for me if you will.
I will be fine-- I will learn to my hearts fill this week- 7 hours from home for the next 5 days.
A stranger in a beautiful place. I want to soak it all in. I want my bleary eyes to clear up! :)
Tomorrow the sun will shine and I will smile...Turst me, I know I will.
Bear with me...
10 comments:
Don't feel alone. After all, you have your blogging friends with you. :)
ditto what gary said.....:)
go sink your toesies in that sand tommorow, learn as much as you can....and enjoy your time alone..
I can definately say that I have known loneliness such as you have as I'm sure you've read. Hang in there for tomorrow is another day and it shall pass...
Lonliness doesn't endure either... I am sure your prediction about smiling tomorrow will come true.
/bark bark bark
first discomfort....then growth! good to be moved easily for the writer! take us there and keep the photos coming
/grrrrrrrrr
ADVENTURE!
Sorry. I just finished reading a book called "Write Tight," and that's all I'm allowed to say. Wait. Damn! I'm still writing! Stop! Oh come one! How do you stop this thing?
Whew...finally. Ooops.
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you! :)
Today is better...much better.
I think "transition" time is precarious for me. This is probably true for most people- specially when you are alone, and used to a small crowd following you around! LOL!
I found out today that I am not a "freak", or I am not the only one at least...LOL! More about that later!
I appreciate your words of encouragement...thank you again :)
ohhhhhhh Cora!! I am sorry that I just saw this today or I would have mailed ya!
Funny that the things we think we want arent always what we really do want... then again sometimes we do want them but taking that step to have them in HUGE and SCARY as poop!!
How cool about what Gary said... he is right... there is this vitual community of friends here and we care and are here to listen!
I wish you strength! I bet this will be a wonderful week of growth for you!
I havent been to GA. Thanks for the photos!
cheers!
"Being alone when all I want is arms around me. And when I have arms around me, wanting to be alone."
I can relate to that.
Hope you enjoy the writers conference. Love the sunset pic especially.
You take lovely pictures. And I will pray for you too.
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