- Walter Pater
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
- Walter Pater
Friday, December 19, 2008
Sitting on my bed in a quiet house, I held a tiny little boy in my arms and felt overcome with love and wonder.
In that perfect golden moment I had no worries, no fear, no doubt, not even a stray thought about what to fix for dinner. I was too enthralled, almost hypnotized, consumed by the sight, movement, and scent of the tender and gentle child in my arms.
I existed for him. He existed because of me.
We were encircled, much like a womb, with such love, need, and beauty, there was no room for anything else. No fret, trauma, or even a mild irritation could penetrate the almost tangible flow of warm energy which surrounded us.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
I have Billy's Christmas CD and listen to it every year-this is one of his best songs : )
As much as I love Billy Idol I'm not sure I'd want to find him under my tree :) Daniel Craig is another matter entirely! lol-
Actually, the things I want this year are things no one else can give me.
I want to feel grounded again,
But not lose the ability to soar.
To sleep at night with a clear mind,
But find it a jumble of creative ideas in the morning-
and with no regrets.
To love fully, without having to apologize.
To quit pretending to love, without having to apologize.
To inhale the world,
and exhale Me...
and not who everyone wants me to be.
To be aware of the past,
but not let it dictate my future.
To create a way for tomorrow-
Which will carry me with gratitude, joy, and love in this life, and in the next.
To remember the best way to "say" I love you is to SHOW it.
To show my children no one in the world is more important to me than they are.
To exercise with all my heart, for my heart...because no one else is going to take
care of me if I don't take care of me first.
I want to listen twice as long as I speak.
I want to write 3 times longer than I speak and listen.
To find a quiet corner I can call my own. MY OWN- where no one else can invade my space without being invited.
To enjoy me being me, and enjoy you being you.
Merry Christmas, and Happy Hanukkah friends~
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thank you for all the b-day wishes for Juli...
Enjoy this little one- it only takes a minute- and you won't be sorry you listened- He is adorable!
My Asher...(well, he's my nephew!)
I love you more than all the world...
The little child who taught me about love-
She's still my "baby"- but So grown up!
Happy Birthday Sweetheart- I love you more than mere words can express :) What a gift you are to me- and you always will be~
Sunday, November 16, 2008
"You are talented at many things"
-my fortune cookie after dinner tonight
It's been a tough day for me. One of those days when you can't put your finger on exactly what's wrong but your heart and mind are out of sorts. The truth is there are MANY things in my life which are good, and MANY things I wish were better. Things I CAN control, and things I CAN NOT control.
I very clearly remember the first time I ever read the Serenity Prayer~
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
It was on a book-mark, or a coffee mug at a truck stop/gas station we pulled into on our way to Indiana. I was probably 12 years old. My dad was taking us to visit our Grandmother and I was so excited about the quote (I've always loved good quotes) I rushed over to share it with him. His reply was, "That is stupid. I can't stand that prayer, it's so depressing."
So much for the father-daughter Hallmark moment, huh?
Anyway, his reaction confused me. I couldn't fathom how he found the quote depressing and not profound. At the time I wasn't aware of the drinking problems which plagued his family, nor was I aware this prayer is one often used by alcoholics...I just thought it was a great "life statement". It wouldn't be the first or the last time my father and I failed to see eye to eye on something.
To this day, as much as I love the quote, I never read it without recalling dad's reaction to it. His disapproval lingers over the memory like a faint shadow, and truth be told, his disapproval about some things in my life lingers over me in more ways than I'd like to admit. It is time to let this stuff go. It is time for me to look at me with my own 2 eyes, and not through the eyes of my parents, or family members, or people in the church...or anyone.
I need and want to be me, and further more, I want to LIKE that person.
The sad truth of today is I didn't like the person I saw in the mirror this morning. I can change that. The mistakes of my past, bad choices, desperate responses, ugly words, judgements, and assaults against me- those are things I can not change. Knowing the difference between the two IS wisdom. Acceptance of BOTH things is divine.
The sun has now set in my part of the world. The day is closing as I sit in my office upstairs with mug of Jasmine tea and my thoughts. Despite the poor reflection I saw this morning when I awoke, the world went out of it's way to speak life to me today, via a preacher, a speaker, and a cookie.
I didn't wake up with Serenity this morning...but she found me before the sun set, and I am grateful.
Peace to all of you~
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Thank you for the way you have touched my life- in ways seen, and those unseen.
The Army Hymn
Oh, Lord of Hosts! Almighty King!
Behold the sacrifice we bring!
To every arm Thy strength impart,
Thy spirit shed through every heart.
Wake in our breasts the living fires,
The holy faith that warmed our sires;
Thy hand hath made our nation free!
To die for her is serving Thee.
Be Thou a pillar for to show
The midnight snare, the silent foe;
And when the battle thunders loud,
Still guide us in its moving cloud.
God of all Nations! Sovereign Lord!
In Thy dread Name we draw the sword,
We lift the starry flag on high,
That fills with light our stormy sky.
From treason's rent, from murder's stain,
Guard Thou its folds till peace shall reign,
Till fort and field, till shore and sea
Join our loud anthem: praise to Thee!
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
However, the Sun, Earth, and water could not be resisted.
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Art by Diane- (the painting in the back ground is a piece K9 is working on- it will be fabulous and BIG)
Arty/pottery by Betty ( http://www.fishbonestudio.net/)