Thursday, February 28, 2008

"All that we are is a result of what we have thought" -Buddha

From "The Secret"
Expectation is a powerful attractive force, because it draws things to you.
As Bob Procter says, "Desire connects you with the thing desired and expectation draws it into your life."

Expect the things you want, and don't expect the things you don't want.


I have been waiting for today...for THIS day- Thursday, Feb 28th, because this is my day of rest and self evaluation. Since Sunday- I've cleaned my mother's home (sis helped), taught a wonderful child how to knit, spent time with a dying friend, spent time with a friend I love more than I love myself, wrote letters to people I wanted to connect with, cooked wonderful meals, and had a difficult conversation with my husband.

We think what we think- right?
Our thoughts are like the ocean surf...water rolls in, and it rolls out. Or like the current in a stream- it's just "there"- isn't it???
I used to think so, but not anymore.
I know the tides of ocean are controlled by the power of the moon's gravitational pull on the earth. I know that currents in a stream are also created by unseen forces such as gravity, the lay of the land, rainfall, and wind. Some of the most powerful forces in nature can not be seen- or even fully explained, and yet our survival, or demise, depends on them.
If we consider for a moment that our "thoughts" are no different than the forces that drive water down a river bed, or force wave after wave upon the beach, how exciting is the idea that WE have control over those thoughts?
I WANTED this day to be mine. I KNEW it was coming. IT has ARRIVED as I EXPECTED it to.
I know the phone could ring- and there could be an emergency. I know that my reality interconnects with the realities of others. I also know that I often let my day, and my plans, and perhaps even my thoughts, be driven or changed by the desires or needs of others.
For 2 years I have been asking, in my Spirit, for something I need (it's personal and I won't share it here)- and it's finally coming. In abundance. Almost like a waterfall- I feel astounded by the rush of what has arrived in my life.
When I opened my book this morning- the truth of what I have been doing was right there on the page- directly in front of me. Again- I was reminded of the power of our thoughts, and of our words. I feel a sense of elation that is impossible to describe, even as I look down and see the grief I am living with in regards to my mom, and my brother, their finances, and the strained relationships I have. I also see a flood of love and support from sources I didn't know existed.
I want to walk in this state of mind- prayerful,thoughtful, seeking, asking, and not worry when I fall, as St. Peter did on the sea of Galilee- because we all fall sometimes. Peter's fall is significant because he fell in the presence of the One who encouraged him to step out- but Peter let his own troubled thoughts diminish the power of himself.
Troubled thoughts diminish the power of ones self... (hey! I wrote that! :)
Clear thoughts and expectations increase that power.
It's now 10:40 am- and I have other things I want to do this morning- but even if I curled up and went back to sleep- it would be ok. I have written what I needed to write for this day.
Hugs and love to you-

Monday, February 25, 2008

(with thanks to Rose- who posted this at Lux's place...and the flood of thoughts that came soon after)

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

- Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love

For Lux...

Thank you friend for bringing out the best in me~

(These are all blooming in my front yard :)

Thursday, February 21, 2008

The day after~

I love Pink Roses...on any day EXCEPT Valentines Day~
Call me crazy- but I don't want, or need, a man to buy me flowers under duress.
Give them to me when it's least expected...
These were on sale, the day AFTER Valentines day- Regular price= $38.50
MY price the day after...
$5.00!!!The only thing better than pink roses-
Is CHEAP pink roses! lol

Life is like this... If we get what we want- when we think we should have it, we'll pay too much and enjoy it less. If we wait patiently for a thing we want and love, it will come to us- at a better price, at the right time, and we'll enjoy it more.

At least, this is how it seems to work out for me~

Hugs! :)

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

For "She"/ k9

It seemed too much of a coincidence that I would see this painting today- and read the following...
Hugs and love to you :)

Parable of Immortality

I am standing by the seashore.
A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze
and starts for the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength,
and I stand and watch until at last she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sun and sky come down to mingle with each other.
Then someone at my side says :
- 'There she goes!

Gone where?
Gone from my sight - that is all.

She is just as large in mast and hull and spar
as she was when she left my side
and just as able to bear her load of living freight
to the places of destination.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.

And just at the moment when someone at my side says:
- 'There she goes! ',
there are other eyes watching her coming,
and other voices ready to take up the glad shout :
- 'Here she comes!'

Henry Van Dyke 1852 - 1933

Thursday, February 14, 2008

About this time last year...

I met a fellow blogger...who, like me- seems to be off the radar for a while.
It was a special day and I wanted to share once again :)

Hugs Sean :) Whatever you are doing today- Happy Valentines Day.
It's was wonderful to meet you...and an honor to know you :)


About a year ago I stumbled upon a blogger who was a soldier in Iraq-
He had only been blogging for a few weeks, just like me.

In 2004 and 2005 I led a group that wrote letters to people who were sick/in the hospital, and next we added soldiers (who were out of the country) to our list.
In particular we wrote to soldiers that were friends of, or were related to someone we knew personally.
I was thrilled when I came across Sean's blog because it enabled me to keep writing to someone in Iraq, and it gave me chance to make a new friend.

Sean was in my area for some training exercises over the last 2 weeks, and I got to spend 90 minutes with him this morning at a local mall.
We talked the whole time! (well, if you know me...getting me to be quiet is difficult! lol)

Anyway- I wasn't sure if our schedules would work out- but they did :) It was a lot of fun and I hope we can coordinate our schedules again before he returns to Iraq at the end of the year.

Thanks was so nice to meet you! I hope next time I get to cook dinner for you! :)

***If any of you have a chance to meet a blog friend- be sure to do it. It really is special~ :)

Friday, February 08, 2008

Sometimes the Light is too bright~

The rays outdo themselves in brilliant glory and human eyes can not bear to gaze upon the hurts too much. My sunglasses are with me constantly- battered, scatched, and the end of one arm broken- I can not survive the full sun without them. I simply can not see in an abundance of light.

Today, with my sunglasses on, I saw majestic beams splintering out from behind a heavy cloud. Foolishly- I took my glasses off for a better look- only to quickly glance away from the brightness. I felt only a burning pain...and saw nothing.

Unlike a gorgeous painting, or a river view- we can't get closer to the light for a better look.

Sometimes it's simply too bright...

And some pain is too intense...

Some truths too heavy to bear...

And all journeys must come to an end.

don't worry if you can't find me...

I am still here~