First- Thank you for all your thoughts and well wishes :)
I tried to answer each of you- I hope I didn't miss anyone!
My son moved up a step in his Karate class today- his first step towards a yellow belt. Both he and my daughter can now do things that I can not- or haven't ever learned to do. It's a wonderful and strange feeling to hear her play the piano, or to watch T go through the moves of his routine. Someone else taught them these things, and in a way, they are now teaching me...but truthfully, they've been teaching me since the day they were born!
At dinner tonight my daughter asked me this question:
"Mom, where do you think the 'soul' is in our body? And do you think the heart has feelings- or do all feelings come from the mind?"
I didn't give much thought to those kinds of questions until I was in my late teens, or in college!
I told her that I liked the idea that the soul is not so much inside of us, as it is something that surrounds us, kind of like a forcefield, but was also connected to us.
I also explained that hundreds or thousands of years ago people used to think that because the heart was at the center of the body (roughly) that it was the source of all emotions and feelings. Nevertheless, modern medicine tells us~
The heart is an organ, no emotion generates from there.
The above sentence hung in the air for a moment, as my mind raced through all the thousands of ways I had expressed my love to another- in terms of my heart.
I love with my mind, with my actions, and my words.
The heart appeals to what's sentimental, or fluffy, or unsubstantial.
My mind is determined, aggressive, and sometimes over-active.
It sounds funny to say, "I love you with all my mind"; and yet at the same time it seems somewhat more profound. To love someone with my mind indicates that I'm conscious of what I'm doing and active in my caring for them.
On the other hand- if you've ever had to say good bye to someone you love, or held your first child, or can remember your first (good ;) kiss...you know the heart is involved. It races, or tightens, or aches...
So much for "no emotion generates from there"...
My daughter and I will have another talk- real soon :)
You are all in my thoughts tonight~ thank you for all the times you've let me know that I'm in yours :)