Saturday, September 20, 2008

Just you, Just me-

At the end of the day-
It's just you.
No matter the illusions held...
Of family, lover, friends, and perhaps Angels-
It's just you.

Kids sleeping in their beds.
Spouse snoring on his side as a migrane of 5 days eases- at last...
Alone in your office, on the computer or with a journal-
And you realize-
It's just you.

You only have you- where ever you go.
"Tis nothing more sacred than the santicity of one's own mind"-
Indeed- Tis true.
Because in the sum total of our thoughts and moments-
All you have is you.

The love and relationships we have are real.
They fortify us in times of need, soothe us in times of loss-
But in the still small part of the silent night,
Our heart beats...each breath repeats-
Things and people fall away-
All I have is me.

Do I love me?
Can I look at this mid-worn body and find comfort in it?
Upon close inspection of my wandering heart... will I be shocked?
Like a smoker seeing an image of his tar filled lungs-
Will this pumping vessel of love show signs of mis-use and dis-repair?
I think so.
But it's My broken heart...the only heart I have.

Held by duty and responsibility-
Anchored by a love that can not be expressed with words-
but only seen in the eyes of my children,
I ponder what it all means...in the still small dark of the silent night-
That all I have is me, and that all you have is you-

And yet, somehow, we are all in this together.

6 comments:

NYD said...

The very most and least you can do is live and love to the very limits available to you.

All else is determined by the fates.

Mayden' s Voyage said...

"love to the limits available to me"...
I will think of that all day to day ♥~♥~♥

/t. said...

with faith
we are never alone

<3 to the lovely mayden

¤ ¤ ¤

/t.

Mayden' s Voyage said...

You're right /t- but there are times when I wish the stuff I have "faith" in had more meat on it's bones- or arms I could feel around me. It's unsettling how many times I awake in the night feeling very much alone with my beating heart.

Libby said...

cora, this says it all, very moving!!

Lady Prism said...

This is so beautiful!