Tuesday, January 23, 2007
~ Time Out ~
I need to step away for a little while.
Both on Monday and today I've sat at this computer and become tearful...
over things that were said, and things that weren't said-
Over people I know- and people I don't know.
Over people I love.
Not all are bloggers...and most are friends.
Sometimes I'm a mush- I know that.
Often times- the words you share with the world hang around in my heart. Is that a bad thing?
Sometimes I pray for you...
The losses in your world are no different than the losses in my own...this is why we connect.
And yet- we are scattered.
Last night I had dinner with a friend I have not seen in years and years. We were very good freinds as children- one of our childhood group has already died. We've yet to reach 40.
Such is life~
We run and run and run. Missing the chance to say to say "I love you".
The world is full of evil things- and of things that are hard for me to understand...
there's a concept I can grasp.
And yet- Love is vast...just as I think I've grasped it- grabbed a handful of it's fur, or feathers, or fluff of cloud- it grabs me and pulls me in. I'm surrounded by it on all sides...and something or someone chuckles quietly inside, "Sweetheart...did you really think you had a handle on THIS?"
I have to laugh too...silly me.
But...it's a nice place to be, if only for a little while. Wrapped up- surrounded- insulated for just a while, before I have to return to the grind of the world.
I'll be quiet now...for as long as I can bear it.