Thursday, April 10, 2008
A long week~
Within 24 hours of my friend's passing, my mom began having a serious GI bleed. She was admitted to the hospital on Friday. There was a delay in getting her released- she was finally discharged yesterday. 11 days of being in a hospital has completely screwed up my sense of time. I honestly thought yesterday was Monday.
Aughhhh! Talk about a blonde moment!
Anyway- I am back...sort of. There will be a big family meeting on Monday and I am hoping we, as a family, can make some important decisions about important people who need care. Unfortunately the combination of denial, deep emotions, and limited resources make a meeting like this complicated and kind of touchy. My hope is that we will honor each others feelings and opinions and be able to reach a compromise that works for all involved; but there is the potential for the meeting to blow up in our faces- so we must tread carefully. There is also a need for genuine leadership- for one of us to speak the truth plainly and be able to take the heat. It might be me...it might not. I don't know yet.
I am planning a get-away in the next few weeks, a road trip to see friends, play in the water, visit my Aunt and Uncle, and hopefully get some much needed time to recover. Honestly- I wish I was anywhere other than where I am at the moment...but it's at times like this when I realize how important it is to push through and not run.
Our strength is determined by how well we bear up under our struggles- not by how fast we can run from them~
I'll be reminding myself all weekend of what I just said. Sometimes I hate it when I say stuff like that- you know...the truth.
I'm good. I'm well. I will survive. I'm worth the time, the rest, the work, and the love it takes to be the best person I can be.
So are you :)